Friday, November 23, 2007

birthday

my birthday is coming soon. it's 2 days from now. i will be 32 years old. the bad news is that im no longer in the calendar. well, the good news is im still in the thermometer! great! but in retrospect, those 32 years were beautiful years. i did a lot of things that i am proud of. i have touched the lives of so many people. i have made a lot of mistakes as well, but i believe that everything is a choice. decisions have to be made. we do not always get what we want in life, but then again, where is the challenge if we will always get what we want? life is a gamble, we should place our bets strategically. we may not always hit the jackpot, but enjoying the game is really what matters most.

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

heaven

where is heaven and how do we get there? they say that heaven is for people who try to become better than they actually are. i say that heaven is a place on earth. heaven is spending time with people you love. heaven is happiness and contentment with who you are, what you have and where you are from. life is a journey, happiness is the journey. at the end of the day, what really matters most is how we lived our life. how we created our niche in this world, our little piece of heaven on earth.

Sunday, November 11, 2007

tired

my day started just like my other days. i wake up feeling weary because i didnt have much sleep. actually, i had plenty of sleep but i wake up at 2 am, and suddenly falls asleep again at 3am. i woke up feeling tired, wondering if i'm doing the things that i'm supposed to do. life has been tough lately. and i have been feeling the burden. i hope to wake up one day feeling good about myself.

Saturday, November 10, 2007

on cellphones

the cellphone is one of the most amazing inventions ever. it literally connects people. however, right now, i just want to throw mine in the trash bin. he hasn't called.he hasn't even sent a single text message. it s killing me and making me sick.after being in his arms for a few hours, its unfair and totally out of line. is this his way of saying that he doesn't need me in his life? perhaps. and perhaps, i should re think my options.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

chess

chess is a mind game, very cerebral and impersonal. But somehow, chess reminds me of relationships. its all about timing, and making the right moves. the queen is more important than the king, although losing a rook or a knight may cost you the game. i realized that having relationships is almost like playing a chess game. you'll never really know if you'll win or you'll lose, and sometimes, winning is not really that important. it's all about having played the game well. Eventually, having played a lot of games makes you a better player. Anticipating the opponents moves. Planning ahead of time, and finally, going for CHECKMATE.

Friday, November 2, 2007

me against the world

everybody tells me to stop and think. nobody told me to go for it. from the very beginning, it was hard for me. i often wake up at dawn, no make that ALWAYS, i always wake up at dawn, between 2 am and 3 am, without knowing why i am awake. perhaps its the guilt feeling, or perhaps its just stress. but whatever it is, its taking a toll on my psyche. its making me uncomfortable. im questioning my jugdment. im questioning my sanity. im in a difficult situation. actually, im in a no-win situation, yet, i still believe that there is something that is worth fighting for. whatever it is, i hope to god that i'm right.