me against the world

everybody tells me to stop and think. nobody told me to go for it. from the very beginning, it was hard for me. i often wake up at dawn, no make that ALWAYS, i always wake up at dawn, between 2 am and 3 am, without knowing why i am awake. perhaps its the guilt feeling, or perhaps its just stress. but whatever it is, its taking a toll on my psyche. its making me uncomfortable. im questioning my jugdment. im questioning my sanity. im in a difficult situation. actually, im in a no-win situation, yet, i still believe that there is something that is worth fighting for. whatever it is, i hope to god that i'm right.